Prince Charming

I'm not exactly sure what I was thinking
you were magnetic and friendly
I was on holiday in a foreign place

We had a few beers, talked
shared dinner and a few dances

You introduced me
to some friends who vouched for you
male and female alike
above the roar of rasta remix music
the bar where you worked
You had just graduated and were feeling
celebratory

I could have eaten your accent with a spoon

I wasn't even drunk

I thought
maybe we could hang
relax awhile
then I'd go back to my room

We took a cab 

My phone was almost dead
so I turned it off

When we had gone up the stairs
into your apartment
I found out it was shared with somebody else

It's what I had imagined grungy big city life to be like
but seeing it in person nearly made me want to leave

You brought me into your room
so your roommate wouldn't see me
when he got home


You started taking my clothes off
removing yours too

Stone cold sober
I realized this was actually going to happen

Part of me couldn't believe
someone like you wanted someone like me
Part of me wanted to leave

I stayed. 

The regular sex was okay
but it wasn't enough for you

You had me turn over
before I understood what was happening
your huge dick was somewhere
I didn’t want it to go  

I hurt
a lot

I froze 

When you finished
you showed me the condom
proud of your cum
washed up while I got dressed

When you came back in
you pleaded for me to stay
sleep awhile

I agreed

I guess you thought
we'd have sex again
but I was terrified of you

I needed to leave

But I stayed
waiting for you to fall asleep
I quietly got dressed
used the last of my phone battery
to find my way back to the train station

Waited for the train for almost an hour

I kept looking behind me
scared that you would come after me
find me

You didn't

The train finally came

As I walked back to my room
stunned, exhausted
you called

I guess you woke up
noticed I was gone 

You acted so worried
asking where I was

I said I was a block from your work
almost home
but you didn't believe me

Finally, you accepted
I wasn't coming back
said you'd call me later

Okay,
not sure whether I wanted you to
or not

You didn't

I never heard from you again

I think I was relieved
disappointed too

It requires a special kind of self-loathing
to hope for a phone call
from the beautiful, exotic guy who
might have just "raped" you

Too shocked and scared to say no though 
so maybe you got what your deserved

After all, he bought you dinner
And drinks
And caused you to bleed

.Price Charming.